I want it all... I want it all... I want it ALL, and I want it NOW!

The Queen of Queen said it best... "I want it all..."

Am at a stage now when I am starting to feel a bit restless, and very very bored with the "baby talk" and baby actitivities that fills our day. I think a lot about returning to work - i.e finding a job as I am out of contract, and am currently finetuning my CV. Am procastinating a bit though, as am also not at all sure how on earth I can combine an interesting job with being there for baby E or how I can even manage emotionally, to outsource the care of her during the daytime... All my previous jobs, have been quite demanding, long hours and lots and lots ot travel, which I normally like, but with baby finding hard to accept.... but also, don't want to step too far down the career ladder either, as that would feel like a failure. There has got to be a way to combine career and family life right!??

I have to believe that I can have it all somehow. Just need to figure out how.

Accidental parenting...

Anyone tried the "pick up put down" sleep training method championed by "the baby whisperer"?

We have fallen into the trap of rocking baby E to sleep in the chair and now she can't get herself back to sleep on her own when she wakes up in the middle of the night. She is also fighting sleep like a fiery terrier... she may miss something if she shuts those pretty blues you know... exploring, exploring, life is simply to fun fun fun! :-) I also tend to take her into our bed when she is difficult to settle back to sleep around 04.00 when I am shattered... bad habits I know...

Anyways, time to fix this. Soon. Is also very nice and cuddly with her next to me though... but I don't sleep and am loosing it soon, so. Needs must. Really! Next week!

Nothing really changes...

....funny how quickly I fell back into old ways... when my lovely wonderful friends BB and miss Prada, took "mama out tonight" last week, I found myself by the bar, late at night, ordering Sambucas for us that none of us really needed... oh dear, and I thought I'd grown up a little with parenthood....

THANKS again BB and miss Prada, for a smashing night! You are the best!

...and so sorry baby E for all the future embarrasing stories you may hear about your mamma....