May I go to the gym pretty please?

What I am finding the hardest about being a mum after 38.5 years of total independence, is that I am no longer the boss of my own time.... the H is very much a teamplayer, wanting to spend time with baby E, and help me to get some "me-time" but even so, I constantly feel as if I am asking for permission to do something and obviously have to work with his schedule as well.

So the old life of being the boss of my own time is gone for the next 18 years or so... and that is probably what I am finding to be the most difficult change.

NO!

If i have to sing "the wheels of the bus go round and round" or any similarly silly song with lots of mumsy women with silly highpitched voices ever again, I WILL SCREAM

I also cannot surive another lunch/pic nic/coffee etc ONLY talking about what our babies are and are not doing.

THERE ARE MORE THINGS TO TALK ABOUT!

PS: Yep, the breastfeeding hormones are definately on their way out.....

Dummies. Not that dumb really.

I dropped E's dummy into the bag of one of the other mum's yesterday at baby swimming, and checked with the mum in question that it wasn't hers before retrieving it. She smirked (yes, REALLY) and said "no, no, my Ben doesn't have a dummy" with the emphasis on "dum". I am not kidding. The ugly, boring, repulsive woman who was desperately trying to calm her squirming, messy, screaming little boy SMIRKED.

I don't know about you, but i wouldn't call a device that gives babies comfort and fulfills their sucking needs something to smirk about... in Sweden it is called a Napp, which has no connotations to stupidness and there seems to be a much broader acceptance of using a Napp than here in the UK. Maybe if it was called something else people wouldn't have such stupid reactions to it?

Desperate Housewife

Best to never let mums and dads on maternity/paternity leave out of the house... We have had two holidays the last month, one diving, one skiing (I know, luxury and totally against the sign of the times :-) and it has been GREAT. I got a taste of my old life pre baby back as we had the in laws with us for the diving, and then took turns to babysit for the skiing trip. This was fabulous, but also dangerous as I am now climbing the walls.... Also think my hormones are leaving my body at the same rate as we are cutting back on the breastfeeding meaning I am getting back to normal. Meaning I am sooooooooooooo bored in our (lovely) house and need to get out to not become totally apathetic and just watch crap TV (such as desperate housewifes...)

Still loving to be with baby E - just going crazy in the house so need to get out a lot. Luckily it is spring in London and we have been picnicing for four hours today :-)

I think I must be the worst housewife material in the entire world... I can't even be asked to empty the dishwasher.... hope that mormor (Swedish grandmother) stays healthy and energetic for many more years, otherwise little E will not know what homemade food is....

Everything is changing...

Baby E is six months next week. SIX months. Half a year.... how did that happen? And all of a sudden everything is changing. She now sleeps in her own room, in her cotbed rather than next to me in a Moses Basket, she now eats solids and we are cutting back on the milk, she now goes on walks in the big girl stroller rather than the carrycot..... and her mum is having withdrawal symptoms.

There was a lot of talk about Post natal depression, but not a word about "post breastfeeding and sleeping in the same room" depression during my NCT course..........

Bjorn Again!

As amusing the thought of the serious and scary ex-KGB agent, Putin, shaking his booty to Bjorn Again - that wasn't what I meant to write about here.

What I was going to write about is how fun and amazing life is with a baby who keep seeing things for the very first time, and EVERYTHING is exciting! The shade from a lamp, mummys feet, her own feet, daddys nose, her own nose, a funny noise, a bright picture, a song, blowing a raspberry, mummys silly dancing etc etc.

She really is very easily amused (and she may think the same about me as she makes me giggle all the time....)

Baby fluids....

...so today, all before 10.00... little baby E has pooed, peed, spat and thrown up on me....

Good thing she is so bloody cute!