All she ever wanted was everything!

Today was the last day of my maternity leave. Monday our new life is starting. My emotions are all over the place, and baby E (well... toddler now really...) has never been cuter or sweeter and our bond has never been stronger. I am so so so scared that this will not be the case when I go to work but need need need to do this, really feel a huge need to have an exciting and fulfilling job as well, and an urgent almost psysical need to use my brain again....

There is a very suitable painting in our bedroom of a woman juggling all sorts of things with the text: "All she ever wanted was everything"... never felt more fitting!

Wish me luck!

ch ch ch ch ch chaaaanges!

Hurray! I am starting a new, really great job beginning of October. It is perfect, and just what I wanted!

Hurray! Ellinor has been offered a place at our favorite nursery, starting the schooling in next week!

Help!! I am absolutely petrified about leaving her... not because I fear she will not be well taken care of, I am 100% convinced she will be absolutely fine at nursery and have so much fun (was there today for an hour for a first orientation, and she went for all the toys straight away, and didn't want to leave...) but I have this silly fear that our relationship will change. We are so close now, and I love it... would hate to let that go. At the same time, can't wait to get back to work... am not fit to be at home all the time, was starting to go a bit stir crazy to be honest.

Help again! Also have this fear that I can't make it work with a high powered job requiring a lot of time and effort and a family... but I want to make it work, I kind of have to make it work otherwise there is something very very wrong in our world....

All advice from working mothers most welcomed!

Is taking care of an active and curious 11.5 month old not seen as working??

My darling husband, the H, is working a lot from home these days. As am I obviously. I can't explain to him why, but I NEED HIM OUT OF THE HOUSE during the daytime.... it is just cramping our style having him there all the time. I feel really bad about feeling this way because

a) I can't rationalize/explain it
b) Ellinor gets to see her dad for a few minutes every now and then throughout the day when he is working from home
c) He likes working from home...

Having said all that, a few years ago, I remember him saying that we could never both be working from home at the same time... something he now doesn't agree with anymore. Does that mean he thinks that taking care of an active and curious 11.5 month old isn't working????

Bah

Too cute!

If you haven't seen Evians baby commercial, you have to check this out, it is too cute!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XQcVllWpwGs&eurl=http%3A%2F%2Fmamavaganza%2Eblogspot%2Ecom%2F&feature=player_embedded

BOB the Builder - CAN HE FIX IT?

So. Back from a four week !! break in Sweden (will write separate blog about this soon!) We had commissioned builders to do some work during this time, giving them three week to finish knowing they'd take longer than promised. Anyone think they were done after four weeks? F*** no. Not only was the house in total total chaos, with thick layers of builders dust everywhere... but only half of the jobs were done, and some of them to quite dismal quality even.... so, we had to clean the house properly and then escape to an hotel, as the builders were coming back to fix some of their c*** ups.

I was humming the Muppet show theme tune as they were working along..... "it's time to play the music..." Grrrrrrrrrrrrr

It also makes me think of my good friends little two year old belting out: "BOB the builder, CAN HE FIX IT? BOB the builder, YES HE CAN!

In our case this would be more like: "TOM the builder, can he fix it? Tom the builder, NO F******* WAY! N

Growing an adult?

How scary is this.... little baby E will one day be a grown woman, like me.... HOW is that possible? How can I prepare her for all the pitfalls and dangers in life when I have myself fallen into most of them? How can I prevent her doing same mistakes I've done?

How can I make sure she is a better daughter to me than I ever was to my mother?

Again, so sorry mum!!!!!!!

Scary 40!

Ha ha! Am planning a scary 40th birthday party on Halloween! Ha ha ha!!! Am enjoying the planning and really looking forward to having all my friends there to celebrate, so do plan a trip to London if you consider yourself a friend :-) Invitation to follow soon-ish!

40. Huga. big 4-0.... sounds SO much older than I feel. Should I have a midlife crisis now?