The FEAR

Lily Allen sings about The Fear. I feel it daily. I try to shake it off and live in the moment, but get overwhelmed by fear so often that I start to question my sanity. The Fear is about something bad happening to toddler E. Anything bad. Not allowed. Can't cope with it. Logic says to not worry as she is clearly on top of the world and happy as can be, but can't stop... Starting to understand my own mum so much better now.... Again, sorry for worrying you so much Mum! (not that she reads this blog, have kept very secret from family for various reasons, plus she doesn't understand much English, more of an editorial point...)

Our best time is NOW

So, ever since baby E was born, I've been wanting to freeze time as she's been so wonderful but just like so many seasoned parents told me, it's just getting better, and now, at 17 months, I really feel that it's the best phase so far. She is so much fun, loves goofing around, laughs most of the time, babbles the rest of the time and loves to cuddle. Can it really get any better??